Testimony

Hey guys, I know it’s been a minute since I made a blog post, but this one has been in my heart for some time, and I can’t get it off my mind now, so here we go. 

Sometimes, you will be stripped of everything, so you learn that you are still everything without it.

This past year has been nothing short of a miraculous testimony. I have been through many deaths, rebirths, and yet another soul awakening to align me further with my divine purpose. In March of 2024, I left home and moved back with my parents. I honestly did not want to do this, but I knew in my heart that I had to. I had to be there for my mother and my brother. Not to tell too much about my mother’s business, but she decided to leave her husband, whom she’d been with for 10 years. It was a very tumultuous relationship that no longer served her highest good, and I was there to be a fence for her. Her rock when she needed me most, and I helped her work our ancestral magic to free us of the turmoil we endured being connected to her ex-husband. We were breaking generational curses, and I was also going through my own heartbreak. 

The man I loved decided he no longer loved me in that way and moved on to be with someone else. While this broke me, my intuition was so heightened at the time that I saw it coming. I also knew that it was time for the cycle to close, but I didn’t fully see why until my mother and I moved out of our old family home.

After we got settled at my grandmother's house, I finally had some space to think about my personal life a bit more. My mother planted a seed in me and told me it was time for me to leave Arkansas. She was absolutely right, and I started to ask God, where? The first place I heard was Washington because of a school I wanted to attend.

I started planning my move, and within two weeks, everything aligned. If you want to know the full story, check out my YouTube channel. I explain how I manifested everything. I got in the U-Haul with my cat, my belongings, and my best friend. We made the three-day journey across the country to Seattle. I was officially settled in by September 6th, 2024.

When I arrived, I worked in before and after-school care with children. It was something that aligned with my line of work and paid well. I worked that job until February of 2025. However, it wasn't what it was made out to be, and to be frank, I didn't align with the children I was working with. I was also in school to be a psychologist, but I was severely depressed and felt like my life was no longer my own. I had lost my spark after I worked so hard to maintain it. I finished my semester and decided I would never go back. I no longer wanted to use my gift of healing in that way. I didn’t know in what way I wanted to, yet I just knew I couldn’t do it anymore. Once I quit both things, my will to live started slowly but surely returning.

I started creating again, revisiting old ideas I had been sitting on and making YouTube videos. During this time, bills were piling up, and I didn’t know where my next meal was coming from sometimes. But then I started applying for programs and assistance and was able to alleviate some of the financial burdens. I was being stripped of everything I thought I wanted so I could get clear on what I did want.

I was still actively applying for jobs, but nothing worked out. One night, I wrote out my “ dream job” and how I wanted to start programming for children again but in alignment with my path. Not long after that, an opportunity popped up on Indeed in search of an afterschool care instructor for a nature school. I applied immediately, but it wasn’t much money at all, which kind of discouraged me. However, I did an interview anyway.

I got the job, and it has been one of the best jobs I have ever had. It feels wrong to call it a job because of how cool and nurturing it is for me and the children. I love them all so much, and the lady I work with has truly blessed me in many ways.

I went through some familial troubles shortly after this, and it really hurt me. It still does because I genuinely don’t feel supported, respected, or seen by one side of my family. It’s been this way all my life, but it just came to a head recently. It taught me a lot about myself and how much I have healed. That my rage is valid and necessary when I need to protect myself from harm or disrespect. It also taught me that it doesn’t matter who it is; if they can’t see you for you, leave them.

I took myself through a 7-day healers initiation week full of different healing techniques, recorded it all, and then shared it on my YouTube. It helped me to gain some insight and clarity on myself as a whole. I also wondered why it seemed like I couldn’t find another full-time job to pay these bills. But spirit relayed to me that this time in my life right now is for me to take a leap of faith and truly trust that God will always provide. This is just a time, but the lessons that I am learning through this time will stick with me forever. Also, I am the job. I am gifted and skilled enough to provide all I desire for myself. I just needed to be more confident in myself.

Due to not really having a choice, I was forced to get back into my creative bag, get my business back up and running, share my life, and start rebuilding my social platforms. I didn’t feel like myself until I decided I didn't have to live my life unhappy. I can do whatever my heart desires, and I know everything will work out better than I ever imagined.

And it’s been happening exactly like that. I am still in the beginning stages of the momentum I am building up, but I can see and feel that this era I am in is the one I have been praying for. I was stripped of everything to know that I was still everything without it. I lived off of $200 a week for months. God provided the rest. I don’t encourage you to make rash decisions because this creative entrepreneur lifestyle isn’t at all easy. But I encourage you to have unshakable faith that everything is always working out for your betterment, even if it may not look like it.

This was just a piece of my testimony. I hope you enjoyed reading it. I love you all so much.

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